||[Oct. 9th, 2004|12:55 pm]
yesterday was my fucking 16th b-day..its sux....so many people said happy b-day and kept asking me if id feel older..the answer is FUCK NO! and today i still dunno if im going to hang out coz none of my dear friend has return my call(dont worry u guys, im not mad at u)..im just REALLY BORED! i have the feeling that my life is getting worst every fucking day... here r my reason
-im gonna drive soon and driving is a pain in the ass( too much responsiblities)
-i havent had bf in years!
- still dateless for homecoming
- my friend sorta ingoring me
- tennis is getting better but why the hell am i still on Brian's court?
and the list is NEVER END..i swear the list can go on forever!!!
- all of the suddent EVERY GIRLS i know want to be on the tennis team...and i hate it! i hate competting with my own friends...i feel really bad everytime i beat my friend but what can i do? if i lost to u guys i'll loose my spot on the team
im REALLY CONFUSE with getmy feeling...its getting really weird..i feel like no one cares about me anymore! i had the feeling like i dont exist in my friends' world anymore....i feel so INVISIBLE..do people really know or see me anymore?????